I learned how to swaddle one baby while the other screamed herself hoarse. I learned the difference between a hungry cry and a tired cry before my brain was fully awake. I learned how fast diapers disappear, how expensive formula is, and how terrifying silence can be when babies are involved.
I took whatever work I could find.
Night shifts in warehouses that left my arms aching. Delivery jobs where I prayed the girls would still be asleep when I got home. Cash work. Odd jobs. Anything that paid. I slept in two-hour stretches, sometimes less. My life became a blur of feedings, work, and exhaustion.
People had opinions. They always do.
They told me I should call social services. That it wasn’t my responsibility. That I was too young to throw my life away. That the girls would be better off with a “real family.”
Every time someone said that, I imagined my sisters growing up in someone else’s house, calling strangers Mom and Dad, wondering why their family didn’t want them.
I couldn’t do that to them.
So I stayed.
I fought every single day.
For seven years.
I learned how to stretch cheap meals for days. How to turn hand-me-downs into something special. How to make birthdays magical with homemade cakes and dollar-store candles. How to show up for school meetings, doctor visits, scraped knees, and nightmares.
The girls became my whole world.
They called me “Bubba” before they could say my name. The word stuck, and I wore it like a badge of honor. At night, they’d fall asleep on my chest during feedings, their small fists gripping my shirt, and I’d whisper promises into the dark.
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